so the topic of xanga came up amongst friends the other day.  nearly all who had one when the site was popular have abandoned it.  i am one of the few still writing, recording, etc.

i started to browse old posts i had written.  fairly enlightening to read my own thoughts years ago.  i am a deep person.  i remember when i wrote because there was nowhere else to express, share.  i remember when i wrote in the dark recesses of the night, in the dark recesses of my mind and heart.  all my thoughts and emotions poured out in quotes and lyrics and articles and tests and scripture and song and lists and streams of words.  i remember when i used to be so much more romantic and idealistic. 

and now i am more grown-up i suppose.  no time to dream or wonder, one must do and act and plan and go.  one must be responsible with life.  one must be awesome in all one does, though awesome i suppose is quite subjective.

i hope all this will translate into ministry somehow.  that the Lord would use both the deep and external parts of me to bless.

 

 

i'm going to leave seminary more introverted and charismatic.

  

Lord, where will You lead me?  what will You teach me?

 

/all these charismatic folk keep affirming me..

//scary territory

 

 

 

i love ministry

i love God

 

do i commit to a church where i can serve

or to a church where i can commune with Him

 

 

I have not arrived
I am far from the finish line
But I am on Christ's Team

His love ignites me
His power fuels me
His mission compels me

I am committed to Christ and to this race
I will run strong and I will run long
Who will join me?

 

- The Finisher's Creed

 

i want to write but i haven't felt compelled to write

also i have been occupied

but it's a new year!

i should pen something down for 2012

 

it was a. ridiculous. year

 

january

began serving agape for my 4th term (non-consecutive)

went to india

february

march

was prophesied over

started talking to and seeing justin

found out about the new partnership program

applied to Gordon-Conwell

april

got accepted into seminary

may

resigned from work

june

began a relationship w justin

july

august

finished working at the IRC

september

moved up to hamilton, MA

began school

october

november

december

finished my first semester of seminary

 

life changes.  many blessings.  2012 felt like it went by super quick. like God held my hand and led me quickly through many doors. as i look back on my old entries, 2011 was a great time of teaching for me. 2012 was one of action and blessing. we will see what God holds for me next year.. hopefully a church family up in ma?  *crosses fingers